Fragments of the Everyday
Today may not be the most pleasurable day ever but it is actually among the most fulfilling day I’ve ever had in terms of acheiving small goals - especially thanking myself for the leaps I’ve taken… having the initial learning ability of mouse scattering in minefield of cheese traps panicking in fear. I believe I can improved in a short amount of time as long as I am committed and want things to really move forward. What is struggle with a whole lot but desperately need is to refine my mindset and ability to still the mind and being more steady. Despite initially starting wrong, I believe and know I still have the ability to correct it and make things better.
I learnt a whole lot from watching others and following the process taught by my teacher. Though it can be really hard to tune out the inner bitchy voice designed to lull me into believing I’d inevitably fail no matter how much I believe I’ve prepared. There’s always that sinking feeling when you think you can do it but you’re really just coasting in the midst, pretending you’ve got it all together but practice breeds self confidence and the promises you keep to yourself in the long run builds innate trust and starves most worries and doubts but insecurity and negative thoughts keep us safe from danger so learn to be at peace with these emotions instead of avoiding them is crucial…